Well just got done with counseling. Sometimes I feel like I am wasting my time doing it. What I want is instruction not to talk about how I feel.... I feel bad, how else am I too feel. Either way it is worse today, I turned 41 (half my life down the drain), M is ending, I will never be a 'real' to a 'real' kid at this rate, I am starting over... should I go on. So that's life and yes it would have been better to write this down and burn it but the panic that would create in the office, along with getting fired would just add to my long list of why life $ucks.
Happy birthday. I'm in the same boat too. Funny how just a few months ago I felt on top of the world, things were all coming together. It happens to the best of us. Focus on yourself first.
Me-LBH, 48 Spouse-WW, 48 Married for 19 years Son, 12 BD #1 - November 1998 (EA 7 months after wedding) BD #2 - November 2015 (same XBF EA) WW filed D February 2016 WW moved out April 2016
