Anyway, the amount of patience and mental strength to get through this is insane. Old anxieties don't bother me as much anymore though.
I keep likening it to getting through traffic. It [censored], but eventually you will get where you need to be.
I have been feeling pretty hopeless. Husband was in good mood and made small talk with my parents and I immediately thought " he is in good mood because he made decision to move forward with divorce and now there is weight off shoulder" or he "just got offered promotion that will have him move to other state" or " he met someone else and experiencing a high"
I know how crazy and unattached I sound. That's why I need the answer regardless of which direction it is. Like getting a medical diagnosis. I feel like waiting is worse then knowing what you actually have. Once you find out you can proceed with treatments and acceptance and getting through it.
Hopefully he won't bail on our scheduled meeting.
I haven't had much higher GAL and kids are off school so I have just been consumed.
