Cali, sorry to hear how things have turned out. I completely understand your "why" questioning after what you put into your M the last year, for it to turn out this way. I wish I knew the answers but I'm facing similiar questions on what God wants from me. I can see the small pieces of what he wants me to do but I still have no clue what the big picture of what will happen is. Realistically I have all the direction I need from him to move forward, the rest are just things I want to know.
We just have to have faith we will be ok and so will our families regardless if we end up with our W's. Keep being the awesome man you have been and let yoursel heal. God has our W's in his hands now and it's between them.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
