Well just got done with counseling. Sometimes I feel like I am wasting my time doing it. What I want is instruction not to talk about how I feel.... I feel bad, how else am I too feel. Either way it is worse today, I turned 41 (half my life down the drain), M is ending, I will never be a 'real' to a 'real' kid at this rate, I am starting over... should I go on. So that's life and yes it would have been better to write this down and burn it but the panic that would create in the office, along with getting fired would just add to my long list of why life $ucks.
Me 41 W 33 M 2013 Suspect A 11/15 Confirm A 1/16 She moved out 2/14/16 Stepson 13 Stepson 16
