2016 a New Year - getting out of my own fog

[Irish M]

Peace. Mleigh and Inpain, thanks for the well wishes.

it was actually a great valentines. Made heart shaped pancakes and we spent the day watching the Xfiles since it was the coldest day of the year outside. Oh the joy of Canada. Why didnt my grandparents move to a warmer climat.

The D's love the Xfiles we are on season 2. I wont watch the new episodes until they are caught up.

So it was Xfiles, the fireplace lit , pancakes and snack food all day. Ordered in a pizza at supper. No talk about STBXW.

I know the old her would of loved to be there. She was always the one to suggest a marathon day.

I had a hard night last night. Since my STBXW is trashing my D's reputation about them mistreating her and zero respect. My lawyer asked me to put together my notes of what STBXW did to them since July 2015. I cried so much reading these notes.

I forgot half of what she did and said. The way she wrote me emails and texts. All the dots ..... and exclamation marks!!!!! then add in all the I , me and myself and I, and I and me's. It is very angry and all too selfish with zero empathy. So I was quite down because I revisited it all . It also made me thank God we are not witness to this anymore because she is a vanisher.

Lawyer wants to send STBXW a letter refraining her from bad mouthing the girls. Certain parents she talks to to justify herself not being a terrible mom seem to talk to their kids.. then the kids at school make a joke about it to my D's . Its quite upsetting. Happened again on Monday. My youngest did not want to go to school the following day.

Sad sending the mother of my children a letter from a lawyer telling her to stop bad mouthing her own children. I'll do it because protecting my D's is my priority as a father.

hope everyone's week is going better than mine

Cheers
Irish