The start of my happiness 4

[Tyler12]

So here is the break down of my sitch so far. I will try my best not to ramble on.

End of October WW came to me and said she was leaving me, she had been unhappy for a long time and needed to find herself and her happiness again, also I needed to do the same before we could ever be together again.

Shortly after that my suspicions were confirmed by my snooping and I confronted her about te EA possible PA she was having. She denied and and has yet to confirm it totally but her actions say otherwise. It is 100% a EA and without any proof I just go with the probability it is PA.

She moved out middle of January and immediately began screwing my financial sitch around. I accept the responsibility for enabling it by my lack of making sure I was totally secure before she moved.

As of right now she is deep in the fog and there does not seem to be any end to it in sight. As much as I want it over I know there is nothing I can do but work on myself.

I am currently finishing my 2nd year of trade school to become a heavy duty technician. ( work on hi way tractors and trailers). The school is only 8 weeks long but it is intensive as far as the information they cram into you in that period of time.

I continue to get out and GAL as much as I need. I have switched my focus towards my 4 children more than I ever have and the relationship I feel we have is amazing.

Personally I feel I am already a man only a fool would leave. However actions speak louder than words and I have to keep on my path until my choices to better myself become who I am.

I do feel like I have been too open with WW am I want to focus on that. I plan on limiting any contact to child emergency which will be immediate response, child issues which will be discussed in a time frame I see fit. And finally the money she needs to pay back to me which as of right now will be a friendly reminder from time to time. I see no need to discuss or talk of anything else as long as A is happening.

Until recently I felt I was too distant and making things worse so I would occasionally make myself available to chat with WW and although it may have seemed like it helped o realize that until she comes to me with R talk it's all empty idle chit chat.

So that's where I at. There have been many ups and downs. The ups are lasting longer than te downs now it seems. I attribute that to the amazing help and advice in this board.