[BrightFuture]

Hi HaWho, I think I’m just not exposed to this MLC numbers all the time. I still think that H is more than capable when it comes to numbers. I keep forgetting that he is in MLC (or is he?), this why he prefers me to handle the numbers. He knows I will do it right.

The impression I get from the reply posts is that I’m doing way too much for H, and he is just enjoying the ride. Sometimes I think this too, and then I remind myself that H singed out the house to me (when he could have asked for a split); that he didn’t take anything from the house, except for his clothes and some personal stuff; that he didn’t take any money from the joint accounts after he left. Yes, I paid for two mortgages for a number of years… Yes, he wants to have this condo for himself (but doesn’t mind me staying there when he is gone, which is kind of throws me off)… I just don’t know anymore… I think I do things for him as I would for a friend. Does he take advantage of it? Probably…

So, the mortgage saga and H’s texts continue… Yesterday I got another text asking me about the info I got when I called the mortgage company.

Then later in the afternoon he sent another text saying “Boy this is a mess.” And then he asked me if I have the copies of all Escrow statements. I had a few meetings at work all afternoon, and then my sister texted me. So, I guess I didn’t see this text from H. Until this morning…

I replied this morning, telling him that I’m sorry, but I was at the meetings and then somehow didn’t see his text until this morning. I told him that I have all the statements and I can scan them and e-mail them to him. He replied right away with Yes, please, he would like all statements since 2008.

Then a couple of hours later I got another text from him. I just could not believe when I looked at my phone that there was another text from H. I’m so used to have the once a month texts about the money transfers and maybe a couple of random other texts, if that… My brain is trained to put H on the back burner for a few weeks after a text exchange. I almost thought that it was kind of disturbing, like he was invading my space to some degree… I guess this is good sign, right? For me. I’m getting to the point when I just want H stay away from my life. And, I’m not even sweating these texts, like I used to. It is just like business as usual. I don’t know where I’m going with this, LOL…

Anyway, in his text H was asking if I was paying the mortgage by wire or send them a check. I answered that I send a check. Oh boy, welcome to the real world, H… He sent Thank you. Then I sent him a text telling him that I would try to scan all escrow statements at work today. He replied with Thank you again, and then gave me some detail about what he is doing to get this escrow thing resolved (drafting letter to the bank and contacting the mortgage company again.) I validated with “what a headache.” He replied “Yup”.

I don’t know why I am posting all these details… I could have said that I just had an ongoing text exchange with H. I just don’t know how to express what I feel. I don’t even know what I feel. It was the longest text exchange with H for a looong time. I know that I’m helping him to resolve a big issue, especially when it comes to money. But, still…

Now I feel stupid for even putting this out there. With the luck of any movement in my sitch, generally, I think this is kind of a big deal. Does it mean anything? Yes and no. It means that we both feel a bit easier to communicate with each other. But, it doesn’t mean there is a new hope. It shows that I’m still the most reliable and generous person H has in his life… But, it doesn’t mean he is changing his mind about the life he has chosen.

Long post again… Sigh…