Thornton, thank you! You're absolutely right! I turned it around today. :] I really think he may come around, but he's already telling close friends about the D, so who knows. He's a private person too...so it throws a red flag up for me.
Today was great! I did everything I needed to do and relaxed about the situation. We talked about a few things objectively and it was fine. I'm sitting here on the couch after he went to bed...just ditched. Normally I would be a little peeved. I actually felt nothing. I took a shower and did the chores. I won't lie I was a little frustrated I'm still pulling 80% of the weight for everything BUT...I'm not complaining to him about it and not "punishing" him for it.
I don't know what I want to do right now, drop the rope or stand? I feel like dropping the rope may be best but it's too soon to truly tell. I'm sticking to the plan, I have time and I'm going to use it. That I will stick too. I'm enjoying this detaching process.
Today he did some things that reminded me that old me would have been pissy about his actions, but as a "friend" I honestly could let it go much easier. I don't know, I know I'm changing. He told me I never would but he doesn't know me anymore. He doesn't know what I value, what I love and want.
I am changing, for me. 180s are making me feel amazing about myself as a person and now that he's here to see me in action, I think it will sink in.
After a good day today he ran out, I think he might expect me to be frustrated tomorrow but guess whaaaaat...I'm good! More than good.
