I Think it's Way Too Late

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Glad you already read my first post.
So what changes are you making?

What are your goals?

Yes keep posting

See, this is where I part with many people with a "normal" life. I've been thinking about this. For the past 8 years and even more the past 4, I've been working entirely with the W. While this was a good thing, it turned into one of the things she used against me.

I have to admit - it did allow me to do other things and have flexibility I wouldn't have otherwise had. For instance, our dog(s) are our children. Back in 2012 we found that one of our dogs had stomach cancer. We opted for some new treatments, which were only available in Sacramento, being studied by the University of Davis. This was a 2.5 hour drive each way for me twice a week. That could easily change and often did with an accident, becoming a 4 hour one-way drive. My W couldn't do it, and it was emotionally draining. I did this for many months, giving our sweety at least 6 extra months of quality life. I was up all night with the dog, every night for obvious reasons.

Then, my Mother has become a burden in the last year or so. Again, taking easily an hour or 4 every day. The W chooses to not see that - but then again she's always had a love-hate relationship with her M in-law.

So now, I have to figure out what I am going to do for a living. Do I go outside my comfort level and go into Real Estate - because I know I can do it. Or, do I start a different business? Go into a field I know?

The problem with getting a full time job - as much as I'd really love one is that my Mother won't be around much longer. My Father In-Law says (and I've always listened to his advice) to hold tight, and be with her as it won't be that much longer.

If you knew me, you'd know I'm going insane. I've never been one to not be involved in something. I just need to figure out what I'm going to pursue, and how to do it. The Judge will be looking for an answer as well! Although my lawyers are filing for spousal support I can't count on that as I'm pretty sure my W's record year won't continue without me around. Funny how she's just now following my advice though.

So for now, I can't say what changes I'll be making other than to go ahead and study and finish my RE license. That was a goal marked on the calendar, I had my test date and all this blew up throwing me back a few months.

Next is to GAL as much as some 58 year old living with his Mother can! Heck, what lady isn't going to be attracted to that? Exercise and try to detach, and apparently go online and turn off all of the notifications from different entities that show me what the W is doing. I don't want to be finding out hurtful things - and got a doozy last night that kept me up all night.

With a CA divorce, this is all going to be over in a few brief months apparently, so I'd better start figuring things out.