Doing better....Oh wait

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It has been a little while so i figured I would update.

For myself, I have been working out reguraly as usual. Going pretty well. the weather has been cold with some snow mixed in so me and the kids got to do a little playing in that. I have been out with friends regularly as well. Having a good time. I have been interacting with females, on a level of just kind of being friendly and I think it is now noticed that i am single because the attention has definitely picked up. I am just taking what comes at me very easily as I have no intention of leading someone on and letting them think there is anything going further. I have told myself I will be friendly and if someone comes along and just floors me or blows me away then we will see what happens, but that has yet to happen. I dont know how to explain it but my W did that to me.

Kids are great. They have been very vocal to me about not liking their mothers house anymore. I have asked if they discuss with her and they say no. I told them maybe they should because she is their mom and needs to know if something is bothering you. I wasnt trying to lead them to throw something in her face, but i am not sure how to play this for their well being. The last thing i want to do is use the kids as pawns in all of this, but i want them to not worry about things or afraid to talk. Maybe they are telling me to get me to say something, but not sure how that would be received by W.

As far as the W goes, since the s5 bday weekend i backed off a bit. The weekend they were with me and she did not call either night to say goodnight. D7 makes comments about it and another one of those things that is not my issue to handle.

At kid exchange on sunday I took kids to a tramp park again and invited wife to join, she completely got there after we were done after she said she would come watch them, I just tried to tell the kids she must have been running late and moved on.
My d7 is a huge Hibachi fan and here and I were talking yesterday before school about it on the phone. W sent me an email during the day that was some things i didnt need info on and a few others i did regarding some questions she had. She was letting me know about thank you cards for S5 bday, signing him up for guitar lessons, then she asked how we do taxes for the previous year, and asked me about some moeny from a retirement account i had.
I informed her how the accountant said the taxes should be handled, then let her know since she never responded to me regarding some things she needed to pay for, i have been applying the retirement funds to that.
I tried to lighten the end of the email as it was strictly business and told her I am now craving the Hibachi place. I invited her and the kids to meet and eat dinner. Never got a reply.

Got a call later in afternoon from her. She had just picked up kids from school and she had to teach her classes soon. The kids hate going, so they always ask to come stay with me. I of course accepted the time with them. As she was leaving she asked if i still wanted to go to dinner. I said yes, and just let us know when she can meet us.

We all ate, had a good time. She had filled me in on some things she had lined up for her dance etc..

Now before we separated i had asked her if she ever wanted to look into opening her own studio and running a full business, she said she wouldnt have the time and likes the way she is going right now.
Now she is talking to me about her doing this and looking for spaces. I just listened and told her that it all sounds like good ideas etc..the business person in me knows the costs of starting this up and kind of stumped to where that would all come from, but i just kept all that to myself. She actually asked me for some numbers to people i know that handle leasing spaces.
So this led me to believe that the money situation is probably not far from becoming an issue. As she has not considered any other work during this whole time. I could be wrong and she may just be realizing all the talk she gave me about wanting to focus on her dance and everything when she wanted to leave was a little BS because all she has done is go out with friends all the time.

Who knows.

I actually feel different towards her lately. Cant really explain it. I still miss her and would like to work on things, but something is different inside of me. Hopefully it lasts!

Anyway, tonight one of my restaurants is holding a paint night and i will be heading up to work and check it out. Should be pretty good as we have a very good musical duo also playing at the same time. My partner there just informed me that there will be about 50 women there for the painting event! I guess i will be there!