Prayer is no longer helping. I no longer know what to say. The more I have prayed the worse things have gotten. I feel alone in the dessert. I am losing my strength physically, spiritually, and mentally. I have been able to keep eating, although not all of the choices have been the healthiest.
When we do not see immediate results, we often think our prayers are not heard. However, our eyes cannot see what God may be doing in the spiritual realm.
When I have been at my lowest and needing to feel that I really wasn't alone in the dessert, I found comfort reading the book of Psalms. King David had some very low points in his lifetime, which can be seen in some of those verses. Sometimes, we just have to be quiet and listen to God speak to us.
Anyway, I just wanted to give you a hug and tell you that you will make it through this valley.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
