The start of my Happiness 3

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. For me I see it as a massive cable of a rope, the type that would tie a ship to the docks. Big enough you could walk up it if you wanted. That made me realize how large of an attachment I have and if I think what I am holding onto is so massive how could I possibly expect to hold that rope up?

Tyler, DROP THE ROPE, that's MY rope! Lol. I seem to envision the same exact kind of rope you are. It's definitely weighing me down. I can honestly say that since ow was here visiting with me, I am definitely more detached and feel more at peace than I have since BD. Seems odd that such a painful event would somehow make me feel better. I guess I could just be numb inside again and just not feeling the pain, but this feels different. I know that it may not stick this time, but maybe it will make it easier to get this feeling back again and, who knows, maybe someday I can keep it for good.

I really liked your last post. You seem to really growing and are so in touch with your feelings and emotions. Of course you're not completely detached yet. You love this woman and were committed to your marriage. There would be something wrong with you if you could just let go at will without having to go through all of the pain and hard work. You are well on your way though. If your wife were smart, she'd turn around and look for you now because it won't be long before you're gone and actually move on. Keep up the great work!