The start of my Happiness 3

[Tyler12]

Hey, sorry it was so long since my melt down, i have been home for awhile but was talking to sister in law, it started with ranting but we ended up chatting about our lives and kids and everything for over 3 hours, it was nice to just talk to someone.

Anyway, so the drop off. I handled it well, i hugged my boys like it was the last time i ever would, not that it is, but you never know. And i dont want to ever feel like i half a$$ed it with them. they had to be woke up to move their car seats over, but i focused on them. When they were moved over W tried to engage me in conversation and i didnt bother. She made a comment about it being cold out, i said not really i find it pretty nice for the middle of feb. but i need to get going have a safe drive. Got in my vehicle and left.

Then the tears started and i had to talk to someone. Sis in law reassured me she is putting on a fake face, acting like everything is all happy when its not. That she is just trying to get a reaction out of me.

I asked why she would bother, and was told because thats who she is, she needs attention all the time. Sis, told me to what you all have and i have been doing, dont linger on it and think bigger, focus on doing things you want.

I planned on going to the gym tonight to burn off some steam but just chatting with someone about their lives and laughing at jokes and happenings was therapudic too.

Its late now so im off to bed.

Thanks again for the support everyone