surrealism is not my style

[ciluzen]

Thanks Nel and IP for the support (and I LOVE hugs!). No master classes here. Just fumbling and stumbling like everyone else.

Talk about focusing on me...

My lawyer just kind of yelled at me for not knowing what to ask for in D. Told me I needed to get in a different mind set before she even considered trying to schedule mediation. Maybe I should "go away for a few days" to get my mind right because she can't help me get what I want if I don't know what I want.

I just got back from a few days away! And I want my H! Pshhh.

So, I had to write an email detailing what I wanted and how I wanted assets split up. S$%t just got real. Its so...vulgar. I sound so greedy in my email. But I was told to aim high. Now I feel so dirty, like I just did the biggest 180 of them all and I don't even know who wrote that.

I feel like calling H to apologize ahead of time..."Its not me! My L made me do it!"

Its a starting point, but ick.

Can't we just sit down and hash this out like real people?