Divorce Papers

[TimR]

Just journaling. No contact today. As far as GALing I picked up an extra light workout today since the match I was supposed to coach got cancelled due to the weather. The work out was not hard enough to be fulfilling there. More me just working with another guy and helping him with his throws. I know it sounds selfish of me, but right now I don't want to help people I want to do things for me! I get that is horrible to say but it is true. I wanted to get out of the house because it is lonely here and depressing, thought a good workout would help but instead I get stuck teaching.

So with that disappointment, tonight's over analytical thought is maybe I should just move on. I am lonely and would just love to feel wanted by someone. Not sexual gratification but an actual closeness to someone. To feel something with someone, to fill that hole. I am not saying I am giving up, just saying what I want. Of course, what ever happens with me and my WW, I know I am not ready for a relationship, and I am not going to through away my M (lol whatever is left of it) just to be with someone.