I am very emotionally uncomfortable. I almost feel like I did early in my situation. I have strong urge to call and confront and get any type of communication with husband. I actually called yesterday when I was feeling anger and mistrust about his trip but luckily he didn't pick up and by the time he texted I was sleeping.
Talked to close friend who is pretty good at analyzing people. She feels husband is depressed. Said she really doesn't think there is affair. She thinks he is depressed and wouldn't be capable of putting in the energy necessary to maintain an affair. She said anyone else yes, but doesn't sense it from husband. This made me feel better. She did say he has been miserable for long time, as was I and thinks I should not go back with him. She does not like how he handled things with child support and kids. She said she never thought we were very compatible...we were always bickering and had different interests. My mother said she never understood how we got together either. that he was night and I was day. I am sure husband is thinking this too.
we texted today, brief how r u feeling texts. he did not respond to me and it really bothers me. That lack of courtesy and respect. It really hurts. I have feeling this weekend he is going to say to move forward with divorce.
There is no and I mean no indication that he would say else wise. If there was, there would be calls, some type of concern, something and there is none. I have no control, no say in this situation. He must love this. He said he was living in misery though.
This has been going on for too long now.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
