How do you like your Toast? At this stage in my relationship dance, my toast is burnt.....as in....this train continues to head to the big D. I have to make light of it as its the only thing I can do at this point besides all the stuff I have read.
Recap sitch is below as I needed to start a new thread
L's meet shortly to start at least how the rest of our lives will look as we decided we could not discuss initially together while being in the same house.
I have read many stories and have thought about "what if in a few months, and one of us is not here and living separately, most likely me.....she misses me and wants to discuss our R". I guess this is the fantasy or hope of some us that is crazy and many times unrealistic.
This week was the first week i could say I would have the hardest time even considering any type of R if that happened.
Its not healthy anymore to deal in fantasy so I have stopped thinking about this except for a close friend who asked me tonight about it and posed that question.
In the past I would have jumped at it. I hesitated, felt my anger and resentment boil up, and said not sure I could even think about it at this point. Reality strikes....
________________________ Me: 49 Her: 53 D:6
M: 10+ years
8/2015: Not quite ILYBNILWY but hinting at it; separate bedrooms 9/2015: Few counseling sessions; thinks I should move out, needs space; i don't 11/2015: decide to try some more counseling but while not saying it, can tell she is not here anymore. Refutes any EA or PA 1/2016: Wants a D 1/25/2016: Got the papers about this day...its all fuzzy now. L's involved Still in same house...ugh
_________________________ Me-48 Spouse-WAW 52 Married for 10 years D7 ILYBNILWY 7/15 Suspect EA/PA 12/15 No confirmation/denial She files 1/2016 Working towards the Big D ...still in progress....
