I guess I am pressuring myself to want to find someone new because I'm up against my biological clock. While I would love to heal in the most healthy way possible, I fear that the window to safely have biological children will slowly be getting narrower and narrower. I know it's going to take time to find someone, fall in love, get married and then have children. Meanwhile, My h is going to be 46 in a few weeks and he shut the door on having kids.
Do I choose the option that will increase my chances of having kids or do I stay committed to my non- existent marriage? This is something I keep asking myself.
Hey Feyth... this is exactly my thought process too! I get nervous that I am running out of time to find someone my own age and start a family. I really wanted that with WW but regardless of her deal I still want a family. I am surprised that WW is not feeling the same pressure (maybe she is, I dunno). I had thought she wanted a family, but maybe I was just blind and she didn't. Maybe that is a reason she left. There is a thought.
Anyway, sorry for the slight hijack. It is a tough spot and I really do not know where to go from here. Just wanted to let you know I fully understand where you are coming from.
