So.... I worked today!! Go me! Two months later than I wanted to, but it is the job I wanted, so its all good. Truly nice to get out of this apartment, and my own head, at least for a little bit.

I am still struggling with my own feelings of jealousy and neediness. And the possibility of an EA. Part of me wants to just 'let it go' so he can hang himself--because of my top two candidates, one is young enough to be his daughter and the other is married. This married one is also having "marriage problems", but he claims she helped him save our marriage.

But the other part of me NEEDS TO KNOW.

I feel like we are slipping backwards a little bit.

Me 47 H 49 S18 S15
M 21
BD #1 11/09/15 ILYBNILY
I believe we are Piecing 1/2/16
Suspect EA/PA? 2/28/16
BD #2 "He tried, but needs passion." 2/28/16
Confirm PA 3/11/16, he's leaving in June
H leaves 5/7/16