Sandi's Reflections

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My wife had agreed to counseling for a "birthday present" after she started waving around the D word. Turns out she had no desire to work things out - only let me know she was going to move ahead with the divorce. She was however doing the "we can be friends because that's all we ever were" #$%&! stuff.

I did get angry on the last day, and say if that's what she'd doing there's no way we could be friends after 30 years of marriage. It would and does break my heart thinking of her with somebody else - much less see them together.

My problem is I'm going from deep depression to anger, and feel like telling a choice few people about this. I know it's against DB policy, but I've protected her so much for so long. And to know that everybody assumes it's my fault and I'm the one that filed for divorce is killing me. Also to know some people I thought were friends were enabling this. To think that she's still keeping it a secret from most people so she's got a comfort level, well - I'd like to take that comfort level away.

It gets complicated, doesn't it?