Oh gosh reading this I got chills because I feel the exact same Red.
I had to pinch myself today in the car to keep from crying, especially because he's using his playlist against me it feels. Uuuuugh.
I can't agree more with what you said above, as I am there myself. Right there with you. It's awful, it's hard but in the end...we will come out stronger, wiser, better than before. Look at all of the changes you've made, just look at what you're capable of as a strong, smart, caring woman! Really! There's no shame in crying or being sad, we're human and our human experience, our world has been shaken to the core. We will handle it, we will.
