I think you are being way too hard on yourself. Mozza and Maybell make some excellent points. You seem to be thinking in absolutes and life is rather fluid.
Perhaps try thinking of things this way...It's perfectly fine to think about the future. However, you can't control it and all you can really be in is the now. The past is over, and while you can reflect on it and learn from the experience, it is in the past.
I know it can be difficult to not get too far ahead of yourself. Just try to stay in the now. I understand you miss x-bf. It's easy to get caught up in the attention from another person-especially when you have been so hurt. I am big believer that people find love at all ages and there are lots of people for everyone. However, everyone you date, talk to, or go out with, doesn't necessarily have to turn into a LTR or marriage. It can still be a valuable and worthy R though.
Hugs to you.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
