The resentment, anger and disgust for this person I called my W is at a high today. For someone who I trusted with all of me to have the ability to say so much sh!t and act the complete opposite, totally self absorbed with no one in her mind but herself. Tho she will say she is thinking of the kids too, which is bs.
When she still lived in the house she would say stuff like she was afraid I would fall back into financial trouble again because she wasn't there to watch over it and manage it. I was too. And I am doing fine with it, except the money I had to get me through school is now gone, Why? Because she wasn't getting any income and I had to cover bills, day care costs from here and she felt entitled to pay her rent with my mortgage money as "her check would cover it and her land lord was up her a$$". Well she had been gone a month now and have I seen any of it back? Not a red cent. Now my mortgage company wants their money and I don't have it.
I asked her yesterday if I can give them a date? And all I got back was I have to move money over for my car payment. She didn't want me in financial trouble and know what I may be because she f'd me over on this! Oh and it was soooo important that the older 2 kids her step kids remained part of her life. I asked D12 if she had texted her at all in a month. Nope not once. She said hi and gave them a hug when we met for S1 b day but that was it. Never asks about them. How their life is. She has become such a disgusting person to me. The loving caring beautiful souled woman I loved is gone. Is she gone forever? I don't really care right now. It just makes me mad because I still feel the pull of my heart toward her, it's sad because it's toward the woman she was, not is.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
