Wow, mind is blown 13

[Uphill]

Well it's been a little while since I've been here or posted. That has been with reason... XF went back to an R talk a few days ago. Didn't get much into detail as to what she was thinking but asked a bunch of questions.

I left that sit and last night it was brought up again at S4 swap. Said that she has heard about new girl (gotta love small towns). She had heard some true, some not. I didn't verify anything except that I was indeed talking to her and that we had hung out. XF said that hearing that I was possibly no longer available, made her realize the amount that she messed up. Told me she is not mad, she knew it was coming sometime and knows it's nobody's fault but her own. BUT, then proceeded to talk about what we would have to do to give this a shot. I listened, corrected where needed (if it were to happen, she wouldn't set all the terms).

I really don't know how I feel about any of this at this point. There are a few things I would have to see happen before jumping back in. Even then, I still don't know. Trust has been broken. I trust everybody until they give me a reason not to. After that, it's not easy to earn back...