surrealism is not my style

[ciluzen]

Keep showing him how cool and collect you are. Make the most of these convo's and always come across as serene and happy.

I'm trying, Thornton. It is hard to go from nothing (NC from me) to random calls or "dates". When he was talking about his weekend, it was a friendly conversation.

But I really am starting to think that he is in MLC. I visit those boards and see so many similarities. Yes, I acknowledge my part in the marriage issues, but there is something more here.

His behavior this weekend and at other times shows someone desperately trying to control a situation and other people, despite their wishes. He was TRYING to have fun. Not just having it. Maybe when I was there H was trying too hard to show ME he was having a good time...without me. He seemed to want to focus on me much, but not all, of the time. He also complimented me (to others, within earshot) on my abilities and lack of complaining (I did used to complain or act scared or unsure about where he was leading me or my ability to ski certain runs). But whatever it was, H did not relax. I don't know.

I'll just keep on keeping on. I will show him cool and collected, serene and happy. I will focus on H in our convos, listening and validating where I can. And no R talk.