Painter: I know..I hope I'm not like that when and if it happens. I dont know what will happen. I told him I will not agree to anything until he files because I just do not know what will happen. I do know I'll try to be fair but without screwing myself over.
I had my friend and step sister,mom,sister give me an INTERVENTION last night. They decided to tell me that I need to:
1-move on that it isnt healthy for me to still be so sad
2-even though they ask and I'm 100% honest they said they dont want to hear about my issues anymore because I'm not moving forward
3- I'm doing this to myself by waiting
4- I'm dumb for just not going and filing myself
5- Do I really want someone who could be cheating on me
6- They would never support me going back to him
7- They said I'm being pathetic and need to grow up (mind you I'm the only one ever married with kids.)
If this is how my friends and family see me is this how he sees me? Maybe I'm not doing a good DB job on keeping my emotions in.
Do I lie to the people closes to me when they ask if im okay. I figured they are the closes to me it is okay to tell them yeah I cried for a few hours today but I am trying to be stronger.
I feel like crap if this is how everyone sees me. Plus when I go to my moms where all but my friend live they see me sad and crying. Do I hide this now.
