Monitor scmonitor... If you pay too much attention to her, you will go nuts. She's got her thing going on, her fog is pierced by a ray of reality from time to time and she is trying to control you. She is trying to make you stay put and be her plan B.
In her mind it is her time to be happy now and you f....d up her happiness and now she is going to paint the town red and just in case her thing does not pan out, she is keeping you as a plan B. She does not give a hoot about you ans you really should stop (over)analyzing everything she says/does, because there is no sense to be made.
