roar, I don't have much to add other than big hugs to you. It seems like your struggling with a little boy in a big job that has some big growth to go through. I really feel bad at how much he is missing in you and your D4. I couldn't imagine life without S6. I also have a few more years of beating my head up against a wall than he does.
Don't lose sight that what you are supposed to be doing doesn't change much until A) he commits to working on the M or B) you decide to drop the rope. Stay strong, head up for D4, and keep moving.
M: 8.5 T:10 Me:37 W:34 S:6
Retrouvaille and W moves back- 7/31/15 Piecing - 7/4/15 to present
