NYGal: Still Trying to GAL

[NYGal]

Thanks for your insight and questions, Painter and others. I've tried every GAL I can think of. This weekend I:
1)Joined my Divorce Seminar folks Friday evening for a beer.
2)Then went out dancing with a friend.
3)On Saturday I went to a swim fitness class
4)Went for a long walk with my housemate and our dogs
5)Met a friend for drinks and a movie.
6)On Sunday I spoke with friends on the phone, went on an 18 mile bike ride (alone), then
7)Went to my divorce seminar
8)Then afterwards I fell apart because I hadn't heard from her on V day and couldn't get to sleep until 2 hours after I had texted her this at 1 a.m.:
Do you remember when we fell in love? It felt so right because it was. We both knew it. There were no "major concerns." [she said she has major concerns about ow] You reminded me last week that we used to leave parties and agree we were the best couple there. Because we were. That's why this is so wrong. [Last week she asked if I remembered saying that to her and I said yes but she never responded, so I was responding.]
You say that you are a low life and a crazy woman, but I don't believe that. I believe in you just as I always have."

Please, don't tear it apart and tell me all the reasons why I shouldn't have sent the text and what I should have said differently and why each thing I did say was wrong. I know everyone's opinion. It's just that sometimes I think I know my W better than you do, and I thought this might help. I really did. You tell me to be short with her and don't engage, but last Friday that's what she wanted to do and so I did and heard that she wants me back. She's in some sort of a crisis, and she has reached out for support and to let me know she wants our life back. So I did it, I talked to her and I texted her and I tried to call her earlier in the evening last night (she didn't answer). I will try not to do it again. I will try to follow the advice, and please keep it coming. I am really trying to move on but I feel stuck and all the GAL activities in the world don't take away the hurt I feel or the joy I feel when she gives me hope.