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Hi there Jelly - I've been hanging out over here without the right words to say (as usual), but also as usual mutatio said this greatly. You and V have both told me this before too. You can only base your fears and your feelings on what you know and what you have experienced. minimizing and comparing these to other's does not provide solutions. But, putting more pressure on yourself doesn't provide solutions either.

Throw the next bit out if you want as it probably won't come out right (I mean no offense to anyone and I am speaking mostly about myself in this). Most of us are not exceptional people, most of us are not going to save anyone's life or cure anything, we are not going to be in a magazine or quite frankly even draw a look from someone else. We cannot compare ourselves to those in magazines, or to the charm, confidence, and swagger of those actors. We are all mostly average and boring if you just look at the surface. But there is something in everyone that can spark a fire. Maybe we will never figure out what that is or will be afraid to show this to someone else when the opportunity arises.

I am not trying to minimize your feelings, but with the health risks as you describe them, could self-acceptance and elimination of the pressure of all of this be an option?

Much love to you Jelly
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