The start of my Happiness 3

[G8r]

the point is what I feel is disgust.

Disgust with myself for hanging onto this. For shedding so many tears over this. For having this distorted vision that things will be back to a family someday. Disgust that I want to be with someone and love someone, have that someone love me back that would walk away from a family, tear apart 4 children's world all for a selfish, entitled feeling of their own happiness. Which she couldn't even do on her own.

I feel stupid for holding out hope for someone that would do this to another person. Zues nailed it on the head today when he wrote this.

I am so felling like this today and can totally relate. Some days I want to reconcile and other days I am disgusted with myself for wanting to stay and be with someone who has absolutely no respect for me or our marriage. I also don't know how someone can say they care / are concerned for the child(ren) yet still do what they do.

It sounds like you had a big revelation and are making progress. I also liked your rope analogy because I see the same type of rope. Keep up the work, D3 wants my attention. Got to go.