Jelly, you wrote "Thanks for the support Julie. It is hard one to offer someone support on. I know there are bigger problems in the world than being a fatty. I know it makes me seem like a small minded person, a dependent person, a needy person."
Not all fears are rational. Irrational fears are still fears and have the same effect on a person. Your weight is a symptom of the underlying cause. It could be mental or physical or both. Regardless of origin, it is a legitimate issue. It is unfair to you dear friend to quantify it as less as a struggle then other peoples. Look at it this way, they are all the same struggle, just appear differently. Or this way, you get homework in many different, science is different then math or psychology but at its root it's the same, homework. As far as degree of difficulty, it is all the same. Albert Einstein struggled with his math problem just like a middle school'er struggles with algebra.
All humans struggle with issues. There is no pecking order to struggles. Simple or complex this problems are just that, problems, regardless to their order of magnitude. When a 5 year old's goldfish dies is not that grief the same as a 25 year old's cousin dies? Grief is grief, struggles are struggles.
Perhaps issues from when you are young are still issues and grown up Jelly is not does not see them as such because of your "grown up" perspective. I see roots of my issues going way back.
I am beginning to realize, key word-beginning, that it may all be ego. How I filter my struggles with ego affects my actions, reactions and perspective. We are working the wrong problem Jelly. Let's work together to find out the root issues, do that algebra homework and build a funeral pyre for that goldfish.
