This was a tough weekend. I had a feeling she wouldn't call, and call she did not. I was so elated on Friday when she gave every indication that she wants to reconcile. But not calling me all weekend is a pretty clear sign that she's now back with ow. Of course I'm projecting, but I know her. She can't stand to be alone. She'll either ignore me all week or, sensing me moving away, she'll try to reel me in again.

My chest hurts from the pain again. I have to get this sorted out. I have to tell her to quit playing me. If she's choosing ow then she should just leave me alone and quit filling my head with hope. If she wants me then she must tell ow it's over. She can't keep doing this. It's sick and twisted and I'm so sick of suffering the consequences.

11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker
Reconciling since late April 2016
Don't give up until it's time, then move on
Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat