Hi, I'm watching Mad Max with my son, not much of a plot so perfect for posting. My relationship with my son and daughter has never been better. This is partially due to the difficulties in my marriage. When my wife started pulling back into her world there was a void. I have taken the opportunity to fill that hole. I am not the greatest Dad but I'm with them everyday. I cook for them, bring them where they have to go and try to spend time with them whenever I can. Tomorrow we are going to see Deadpool. Since the marriage began struggling I have become a better Dad.
Jelly dear friend,
Hi V, I was going sideways for a while but I going forward now. Every step forward is a good step.
Dday I am working on my skills and planning a possible future living out west. The southwest has the greatest appeal. I have focus and direction, sometimes I stumble but I will get up and get by with a little help from my friends.
Julie, thank you I would like to think I am or aspiring to be but I was young and foolish years back. I hurt my wife and I'm not sure she can forgive me and put it behind her. I struggled with the "day" yesterday while she was working.
Thornton, thanks for stopping by. I have an idea about process of detaching. Detachment is like a tall building. You enter the building attached to your loved one. Each flight of stairs brings you to a new floor, a level of less attachment. You wander the floor looking for the next staircase. The next floor is a slightly less level of attachment. The speed you climb the stairs determines how long it will take you to make it to the new level. There have been some levels I have wandered for many months trying to find the staircase. I found one last night and am up to a new level. I think you have to let go and the only way I have learned to it is to process the pain and suffering until I learn from the experience and let go of some of the attachment. Come by anytime.
Jelly, dear friend, I feel strongly about you and our friendship. I am drawn to your nature, you have a beautiful soul. I hope we can share our journeys and make our world a better place.
PigPen, I truly appreciate you stopping by. I have moved forward today. I have come to realize my wife wants nothing to do with me and avoids me if at all possible. So I will make a life for myself. Thanks for the support, it means a lot.
2, I have made a leap today, not huge but a leap. I see that I cannot expect anything from my wife. Her rampant disregard for our marriage fuels my resolve. I am shifting my focus to my life.
Grlonfr, thanks, your suggestion is my path. I realized it last night. I am walking alone to a better place.
Sotto, all good questions. I am going to school in the evening and improving a skill set I'll need to follow my passion. I am planning to relocate so I am researching that also. I am finish up home improvements that will make the sale price of the house much higher. I see myself in a life out west if my wife rejects me. I simply stumble in moments of reflection and what could have been. I will do a little better now since I see that she truly wants nothing to do with me.
Thank you good friends, your compassion and concern makes me feel loved. It's nice to feel loved.
