Thanks Thornton. Everyone here has been so supportive and helpful in the sharing of experiences and I truly appreciate that.
It's late and cold and I'd like to go to sleep but don't feel like doing the whole empty bed thing tonight although I have to. It's fine, I'm just complaining I suppose. But I also think about how our friends are not even reaching out to me. At all. It seems that everyone is on his side and agreeing with him. His family has stopped reaching out as much even though they told him he needs to come home and no he is making a big mistake. And friends just dont even call me, not even to sympathize. There's only 1 person i confide in right now who H doesn't know at all and for a long time I just didn't have the energy to meet new people and forge new relationships. Feeling at a loss of friendships and connections we all once shared. People who I thought would be there for me and fight for "their favorite couple." These ppl stood next to us at our wedding and now, I don't hear from anyone.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
