Deciding Whether to Separate

[brutus3]

Had a lousy 24 hours after that counseling session on Friday. Somewhat depressed, maybe impending Valentines Day has something to do with it. The next day I was invited to a friend's house for a beer but I declined because I was getting ready to put my daughter to bed. Felt better though and had a decent evening last night.

So I went and got the wife a Valentines Days card. I know, I know what everyone is thinking. All it really said was "You are Loved" and I signed myself and my daughter's name at the bottom. I my daughter scribble over it, the way a 3 yo can do well. I also got my daughter a small bear and a few pieces of chocolate that I let her take to my wife's house. This morning I dropped off my daughter and gave my wife the card. She said thanks and seemed to really appreciate it. She said she hadn't even thought about Valentine's Day (she's a poor liar) and I knew she wouldn't get me anything. I really didn't care. I thought I did the right thing since she seems to be suffering more than I thought.

I noticed that in the kitchen she had printed all of these meme's from Facebook such as "Either you get better or you get bitter...", "UnF-yourself", "Worrying doesn't take away today's troubles", and several more plastered all of the front of the fridge. I told her I thought those were interesting and she seemed embarrassed. I didn't appreciate seeing "UnF-yourself" on the front of my fridge but it's her place now. My wife seems to be acting like a teenager now and unsure of herself. It's quite odd.

So today I've been listening to metal, drawing, and watching the Walking Dead. Feeling just fine for it being Valentines Day...