It's Valentines Day and I followed through without acknowledging it by any means towards the wife. I must say it has been very difficult not to make any reference to this occasion. This day reminds me of what used to be. I want so much to get over the feelings of failure and somehow reconnect with the wife. I have done my best to follow through with the DB guidelines but some days I feel like my efforts have been a total waste of time and effort. I am not expecting overnight success. I do know that it will take time. I have to keep reminding myself to stay the course. I am keeping busy today, deliberately staying away from the house to limit any contact with the spouse just to make sure I don't falter by expressing my thoughts. My feelings of anger over our situation are very prevailant today. I do not know what the rest of the day will bring. I want this day to end now.
Don't count the days, make the days count. Mohammad Ali
