Thanks, T0. I definitely make attempts to have fun and get a good laugh in. Getting used to my new normal and doing the things that make me happy. And you're so right, all I can control is myself so I've been working on things that I know I ned to fix in order to have a healthy relationship in the future, with our without H. How do I 180/DB without giving up on my M? I want to rebuild.
As I mentioned, he refuses to see me, talk to me unless he absolutely has to. I don't initiate convos with him unless i have to but then DB coach says to not go too dark so I'm confused at this point. Obviously, my goal is to 180 but the more time that passes, the more I feel he just doesn't care about me.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
