MB, were you a wayward woman when you broke off the engagement?
Yes. My H lived 8 hrs away and that was before cell phones. So, we talked for about 10 minutes on the phone every other Saturday, wrote letters, and saw each other for a weekend every other month and begged him to move closer every time I saw him. He never did and there wasn't much contact between us. I met my XH because one of my friends liked him (he didn't like her). A group of us hung out together and we became friends. When my friend moved, he wanted to go out with me. We started seeing each other and I broke the engagement off with H. I was young and incredibly stupid and have always regretted it. I can't change the past and I've apologized for it I don't know how many times. That's another reason that it's so hard for me to let go now. When I married him I promised myself that I wouldn't ever hurt him again. I have felt so guilty about what I did to him for most of my life and I can't seem to get past it. I do believe that he holds it against me and almost feel like he thinks he needs to punish me for it . It's just such a sad situation.
M:45 H:48 M:11 No kids BD:Sept'15 EA:Confirmed 1wk later PA: Oct'15 12 '15 2 wk R Just kidding, H wants NC 12 '15 H back w/OW 4 '15 R &still working on it
