REALLY trying to detach...but GALing regardless!#4

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You've done a lot of GAL stuff, and I like that you aren't burning bridges by finding another person or something, and I like that you're doing 180s...it's the dropping the rope that I can tell you're resisting. That's ok. This doesn't have to be an overnight thing. It can be a process. But somehow or another you need to keep moving forward and having faith that you'll be ok with or without WAH.

I am definitely having trouble dropping the rope. I just don't seem to want to or be able to do that. I am working on me and one day I might be able to do that, but it's not today. And, some day I might be able to accept the thought that he's never going to be in my life again, but that's not today either. I know that I shouldn't want him back, but right now, that's what I want. I know that's wrong, but it is how I feel.

What worked for me was appreciation. I constantly reminded myself that if I couldn't find happiness with what I had, one crazy woman wouldn't make me all better. I hope you read that sentence closely, it took me a lot to figure that out, and that by itself was worth more to me than everything else I know put together. So please, count your blessings, find your happiness today, and achieve the distance you originally hoped to when you first moved out. You absolutely can do this.

When I first moved out, my intention was to draw us back together, but in a better way. I did want to have peace in my life though. That was one of my goals. I still haven't had that.

I read and reread...and then read several more times your second sentence in this paragraph. And just now I read it a couple more times. I will remember that while I'm in search of my peace and happiness. Thanks Zeus.