Today on the way to the store I cried in the car. I was thinking how everything I do is not good enough to stop the train wreck of my marriage from happening. Nothing is good enough, maybe I'm just not good enough for her.
When people complement me I respond with a wisecrack or a self deprecating comment. I was thinking about the welding teacher complementing my improvement in a technique and I basically disagreed with his assessment. The next time I showed him my work he asked me why I am so hard on myself.
I then started to think about "little Mu" and the tears flowed. I think these feelings of inadequacy started a long time ago. I've tried to soldier through them over the years. My failing marriage is not allowing me to ignore it.
What do I have to do to feel adequate? Will it even help me with my situation.
