Thank you for the post and the support. Yes you are right the being beautiful on the inside does only go so far at times. It would seem that most of therapy time is taken up with spending trying to grey up my thinking, from my very black and white thinking that I do when I navel gaze my issues. This weight thing is just one such problem. It causes me a lot of pain and I think that is more what I want rid of than anything else.
Some of it too is about showing the ex's that I have grown and changed and moved forward with my life. I know we aren't meant to care about that so much. But my weight was so much of my feelings of insecurity in my relationships I would like to put it to bed.
