I never thought I had to detach from her completely, I only thought I had to behave that way. How does love survive completely and truly detached? I only have the legality of marriage and 3 children with my wife, nothing else.
Today she went to work for the whole day. I had to run an errand right by her office. It took a lot of effort to not drive through the parking lot and see if her car was there. I did not do it because it does not matter, she feels the way she feels regardless of where she is.
I cried during my errand in the car. Because of my bad behavior I am very hard on myself. My welding teacher even commented along those lines when my weld needed improvement. When he complements my work I disagree with him. I do not take a sincere complement well, if at all.
Time to put on the happy face and eat with the kids, ttyl
