My story JB910

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I'm feeling lower today then I've felt through this whole ordeal so far. Since my wife went emotionless towards me on November 20th For the first time I realize that I've been driving this situation towards a cliff mostly based on fear. I'm going to get real honest right now and tell you all some of the bone head moves I've made so far, please don't make the same mistakes. After the first couple of weeks that landed unfortunately on thanks giving, I was non stop asking what was wrong, and if she was going to leave me. Next I went out on a course of trying to fix all the things that my wife said I had failed at. Next came Christmas and she still wouldn't acknowledge the great things I had done, so once again I kept asking if she was going to divorce me and told her how it was going to ruin our kids. I continued trying to fix all my bad behaviors and on January 11th, made the biggest mistake of the crisis so far. after my wife refused to acknowledge she still love me I said something horrible in a fit of anger, "Well I think that maybe tomorrow I'm going to go down and file for divorce, and you better make sure and get a lawyer because I'm getting a mean one." She locked me out of our room and cried for over an Hour. This is a moment that I'll regret for the rest of my life. I believe that I've been so scared that my wife will leave me that I've actually tried to orchraste that so I could some what have control of the situation. I don't know if that make any since. Any advice would be appreciated.