H is looking for apartments because he thinks it'll be easier to "split" from - aka him moving out is what he said. Okay by me, his circus his monkeys. He says it all with so much confidence, that he's so sure. I'm the one that is pained with the idea that it's a big mistake, that it's too soon, that we didn't even try.
I can't change his mind with my words, I know it'll take action...and I still struggle with the fact I'm holding on for the wrong reasons (fear) because he's all I know and all I want to know. I thought about dating again, all the baggage, the idea of being left again, never really knowing how stupid people can be. I don't want any of that. :| not something I need to be worrying about now, but a thought nonetheless
Hey Red! I need to go check in on you here soon. I do have 6 months and then some! I am thinking I will stay wherever we go and not rush off because I do want to see if this can grow again into something more...still 180 and GAL.
