Inevitable always happens

[keefa]

Hi all,
Interesting few days.
Firstly, I went to parents evening on my own. Brilliant reports from both boys. When I saw my youngests teacher, she showed me his work book with a pic in it, there was his cheeky imp grin staring up at me. I broke into tears. The teacher was lovely and said its good to see pride but I explained that since her affair its been hard and she is denying access etc. Was proper crying. STBXW works at the school and of course it was a suprise to her colleagues. I didnt actually mean for it to all come out but it did. She ushered me into see the head and explained the sitch. The head said she would speak to STBXF ( She is STBXW's boss) I had a call later that eve asking if I could attend a meeting the next day.
I turned up. STBXF said she was in no way denying me access. I dug out my mobile and read the facts. I stood my ground. Told them it was unacceptable behavior and regardless of her feelings for me should in no way be using the boys like this. She again said she'd been amicable so out came the phone again and again read it how it was. STBXW claimed we wouldnt have been in this sitch if id have moved out all those months ago and we would have sorted it out. NO i replied because at that time you were seeing someone else. Head was not amused.
Anyway. net result. I have my boys with me allllllll weekend.
STBXW said she was happy I looked happy and thinks of me fondly. Yeah, I bet. Sadly, I don't. I think of her sometimes and how she has stolen everything from the house. Refused to even try and start to communicate, used the boys, lied, cheated and been everything I hate.
I have power in my heart now. I feel like tomorrow, when it comes, will be ok. I know I am going to have setbacks. Financially I am screwed at the moment but I have a bed a pc and a tv. My now is not my forever.
I have my boys now and will see them every week.
As far as stbxw is concerned. She has twice in 15 years apologised. She is never wrong. She is always right.
Something tells me DB might not have got my m back, but is has done precisely what it needed to and I will be continuing to follow it to the letter. I feel warm inside right now. The house is alive, messy, shoes everywhere. Toy soldiers all over the floor, sweet wrappers everywhere. Heaven.
Guys...keep the faith. it changed for me this weekend.
It will be bad, it will be good. but its gonna be ok.