I'm posting on my thread to just get things out there
today I'm a mess i read a post that bought up stuff that has affected me and been told my wife is out on dating sites like i meant nothing
i don't know about what constitutes abuse and what is just conflict
i used to say i felt bullied or walking on eggshells. ive had the silent treatment for days, had hot coffee thrown on me and spat on, locked out of the house.theres probably more but it brings up so much pain, thinking and going in circles
i haven't told anyone this stuff except my counsellor. i always wanted to make things better and change things. a year ago we were on Hawaii and swimming and telling me she loved me and lots of fun and affection. this year its who are you?
i don't write as well as others and maybe not offering help. i just feel like damaged goods. i really loved this girl and tried so hard to make things better. ive been to counselling reading books getting out and active , then come weekends and I'm struggling.
im going to make a cuppa and just sit outside in the sun and hopefully bounce back
