I read your posts about things and started crying myself I know things are different for everyone but parts of your story resonate
if I go back to before marriage she was the best partner and friend around then later it started going downhill
I don't know about you but I can really see how when we were alone was so different to when family was around like you I'm a mess sometimes.
someone told me today she is on dating sites and I feel like my heart has been ripped out. I would have been better off not knowing. its been 3 months since ive physically seen her I feel like I got kicked to the curb and replaced like I meant nothing.
I don't tell anyone except my counsellor about things done to me, I feel so embarrassed and ashamed. every one says be a man and aussie blokes are strong but it has affected me. I don know why I cant just stop feeling love and forgiveness and wanting things to change and reconnect. maybe I'm naïve.( co dependant?)
I don't know what to write except to say there a people who have been there. you are not alone .
