Stepping in a Different Direction

[Pax_luv]

Hi Sotto! Thank you for taking the time to reach out. I appreciate your words and perspective.

Tomorrow, I officially move the rest of my stuff out of the house. I've been pretty stable about it- emotionally. However, there is part of me that wants to be a snarky as$ and leave a note or something saying, "congratulations, you've succeeded at getting rid of me for good." Or something more dramatic like leaving our wedding scrapbook on the bed... Or... Just something!

A few weeks ago when we spoke, he was playing this "poor me" card where he was saying splitting up was something he never wanted..... And yet..... He refused (flat out refused) to work on it/us. It's kind of like- oh I have a flat tire. My only option is to buy a new car. I'm so upset to lose this car.

Kind of disgusting to me. It makes me go back to those damn vows... A promise made to me in front of family, friends, and God. How do you just give up?