I agree with everything you are saying, but I think as long as she thought she was in love with Mr. perfect we never had a chance. I have no idea what will happen now. It does feel good to see her hurt some and realize the guy is probably a jerk. I will be done with the drama. That is on her now. I agree that I need to keep working on myself. I have no illusions that things are all better now. She will continue to sleep in the basement until I see some serious remorse and effort. She has said all along that she loves me and wants to be with me. She has said she knows what she is doing is wrong but can't stop.
I am a completely different person that I was when this started. I am strong enough to end it. She knows I have plans in place to move on without her. I have said that I will always love her but I can't be married to someone who isn't 100% committed to me. I told her this really doesn't change anything for me (even though it makes me a bit happy that it's blowing up). I told her I have busted my ass to save this marriage for 6 months. I said I was done doing anything until I started seeing actions on her part.
I know it will be a long haul ahead of us. I told her that. I said this will not be easy. But if we put in the hard work now, maybe we can have a great life and family down the road.
Ultimately she will have to show serious remorse and realize she has to figure some things out so this never happens again. I think we are aware of what caused is to pull apart, but it will take work to fix all the damage. I am prepared to do the work. She knows that. Put I won't do a thing until she shows me she wants to work at it too. Even then there are no guarantees.
But with so many days of pain and anger and sadness... I'm going to let part of me enjoy watching fantasy land burn down. I just hope it gets completely leveled. Maybe that makes me twisted but it's how I feel right now.
